Ahhhh... The kick-off of the holiday season!
Such a bleak November day here in Northeast Ohio. Normally, I love all seasons and all types of weather, unless I am contemplating the void in my heart, which is quite often...
I feel like I have been robbed of the finish line and everything I have worked so hard to accomplish with my children as a family. It didn't have to be this way. I was doing fine on my own, after the divorce, that is, if you don't count the two years I didn't even go out on a date for fear that my psycho ex husband would go ballistic and kill someone! SERIOUSLY! Obviously, he didn't want the divorce.
I swear to god! Fucking crack addicts seem to have it easier than what I've been through! I have been ostracized, ridiculed and over time I have been treated like a social pariah by my family because I chose another way. I just wanted to be happy, the kids and I. And I wanted to disassociate myself from the nightmares of my past.
I let the kids think that everything was normal with my family, for the sake of there normalcy? Is that where I went wrong?
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